"I have been without you for weeks, tesoro. I will insist."
He doesn't know if he can forgive him everything just yet. Iago has never been good with forgiveness. But he wants to try, at least.
"My warden has given me piles of work, new assignments, as punishment for - well, being selfish. So I spend much of my time studying. It would be good to have company now."
"Well... good." If it were anyone else, he might rankle at the insisting. But it's not anyone else. It's Iago. And... he likes demands from Iago more than he ever thought possible.
"Rest, then. But I get to insist when it's time for dinner."
There's a moment of hesitation. He knows what he's going to look like if he changes now.
But... it's Iago.
With a sigh, bracing himself for a lecture or worse, pity, he jumps down from Iago's arm and changes as he hits the floor.
It's him, all right, wearing blacks and muted reds. There's circles under his eyes, and a hollowness to his cheeks. His hair is less artfully tousled and more just... tangled, and a little greasy-looking.
He is a striking contrast to Iago, who has rebounded from his Death Toll and is filled out and fit. His hair is done and his clothes are fitted, but he doesn't seem to notice. He just crosses the room anyway and wraps his arms around him.
Just another piece of evidence, in the Cat King's eyes, that Iago will be fine without him, one day. It's a comfort. A hollow one.
He stands stiff for a moment, as Iago embraces him, then melts against him with a soft whimper. His hands come up, clinging to Iago like he's a lifeline.
He can't cry as a cat. Which is one big reason he's avoided changing form lately.
Iago has not been okay. He has not been fine. He has been a wreck in his own way, getting caught in his own lies. Like some sort of stupid spider tangled in her own web. He has kept his outward appearance perfect because it is the only thing he felt he could control. He lied so much that his warden had to intervene.
He was not okay, and he still isn't. But holding onto CK like this is helping. His fingers dig into him as he clings to him in return.
The Cat King draws in a shaky breath, trying to spare himself the indignity of raw, ugly feelings when he's put so much effort into only letting people see the curated, performative emotions if he wants to share them at all.
"I was... scared. You're changing in ways I can't. I thought... leaving would hurt less than being left behind." And maybe it would. Maybe he's setting himself up to be hurt worse, now. But he can't stay away.
The Cat King lingers on that kiss. He's missed Iago's lips, the way he smells and tastes. He wasn't sure he was ever going to experience this again, but... here they are.
"I don't know. I suppose change... hasn't always been kind to me." Every death seems to fuel his bitterness, erode his ability to trust. Leaves him struggling to be the bridge between cats and humanity he was made to be.
"You're good to me, Iago," the Cat King murmurs. "Better than I deserve, surely." He buries his face in Iago's shoulder and just... holds him, tightly.
"All right." He's missed Iago in bed with him. Missed his warmth, his heartbeat... he doesn't smile. He's not quite ready for that. But he does nuzzle in for a moment before reluctantly letting go so they can move to the bed.
It's rare that this wouldn't lead to sex, but that's not where his head is
at. That's not what's on his mind. He just holds CK close, feeling how
comfortable he seems right there next to him.
It's not where the Cat King is, either. All he wants to do is melt in against Iago, breathe him in, forget these last few weeks ever happened. The warmth - and the company - ease his sore muscles and loosen the ache in his chest. It's not gone. He's not sure it can ever be gone. But he can pretend it doesn't exist so long as they're here, tangled up in each other.
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Date: 2025-08-27 08:26 pm (UTC)He doesn't know if he can forgive him everything just yet. Iago has never been good with forgiveness. But he wants to try, at least.
"My warden has given me piles of work, new assignments, as punishment for - well, being selfish. So I spend much of my time studying. It would be good to have company now."
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Date: 2025-08-27 08:49 pm (UTC)"Rest, then. But I get to insist when it's time for dinner."
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Date: 2025-08-27 09:00 pm (UTC)He presses the button for the elevator and takes them inside. "You have not been caring for yourself."
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Date: 2025-08-28 12:25 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2025-08-28 12:28 pm (UTC)"Let me pamper you, highness," he mutters. "That should help. Was the flood so terrible?"
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Date: 2025-08-28 02:38 pm (UTC)"I got the hunger of one of our resident vampire. For days. It was miserable."
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Date: 2025-08-28 02:40 pm (UTC)He unlocks his door and hurries inside. "Change for me?"
If he doesn't get his hands on his human form, hold him, then he might scream.
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Date: 2025-08-28 03:04 pm (UTC)But... it's Iago.
With a sigh, bracing himself for a lecture or worse, pity, he jumps down from Iago's arm and changes as he hits the floor.
It's him, all right, wearing blacks and muted reds. There's circles under his eyes, and a hollowness to his cheeks. His hair is less artfully tousled and more just... tangled, and a little greasy-looking.
No, he hasn't been taking care of himself.
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Date: 2025-08-28 03:06 pm (UTC)"You stupid, stupid King," he murmurs in his ear.
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Date: 2025-08-28 06:55 pm (UTC)He stands stiff for a moment, as Iago embraces him, then melts against him with a soft whimper. His hands come up, clinging to Iago like he's a lifeline.
He can't cry as a cat. Which is one big reason he's avoided changing form lately.
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Date: 2025-08-28 06:59 pm (UTC)He was not okay, and he still isn't. But holding onto CK like this is helping. His fingers dig into him as he clings to him in return.
"I am sorry I hurt you," he says honestly.
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Date: 2025-08-30 06:20 pm (UTC)"I was... scared. You're changing in ways I can't. I thought... leaving would hurt less than being left behind." And maybe it would. Maybe he's setting himself up to be hurt worse, now. But he can't stay away.
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Date: 2025-08-30 06:23 pm (UTC)"I am changing in ways you do not need to," he tells him. "You are not me.'
He pulls back to cup his face and kiss him then. "But you are here, admitting all of this to me. And that is important."
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Date: 2025-08-31 01:00 pm (UTC)"Maybe not. But what if I can't change at all?"
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Date: 2025-08-31 01:06 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2025-08-31 02:10 pm (UTC)"What if I only change for the worst?"
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Date: 2025-08-31 02:14 pm (UTC)"I won't allow that," he insists. "I am not a beacon of morality by any means, but I am determined that you will leave this place."
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Date: 2025-08-31 05:04 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2025-08-31 05:07 pm (UTC)He kisses his cheek. "Come to bed. The rest of what we must discuss can be tended to later."
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Date: 2025-08-31 05:17 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2025-08-31 05:19 pm (UTC)It's rare that this wouldn't lead to sex, but that's not where his head is at. That's not what's on his mind. He just holds CK close, feeling how comfortable he seems right there next to him.
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Date: 2025-09-01 08:23 pm (UTC)